creativity seeker

I have been sleeping at 4am since May. This week got even worse, I can’t sleep at all, not until 6am. Actually it does not really matter since I am having holidays, but it’s just not my lifestyle. As you can see, even though I am NOT human, I am NOT a vampire either. And definitely my secret identity catwoman wasn’t suppose to affect my lifestyle, since it’s a bad joke~

I realise that sometimes they are too many informations and messages for me to process, or normally known as think too much~ It’s not a bad thing, it allows my imagination to go wild, but I seem to focus too much on my world of fantasy~

Used to love sleeping so much…… One of my Architecture seniors, PC used to say :” Sleeping is such a luxurious pleasure!” and one of my coursemates, Sab said that the day we choose to take up Architecture, the day we lost half of our sleeping time. They’re so RIGHT, however I lost the urge of sleeping already since I am so used to NOT sleeping.

I started having lots of sympathy for Edward Cullen, the vampire who stole the heart of most of the teenage girls around the world last year.  He can never dream and what is he going to do during the time when others sleep? Watching others sleep? That’s even more torturing~ Ladies and gentlemen, be glad and appreciate that you actually love sleeping, then you are better than the Cullens.

Time to sleep, goodnight, sleep tight and don’t let big bugs bite……

~weizeng11~

Have been thinking of closing this blog for quite some time, because I don’t see the purpose of blogging anymore especially for a person like me who is NOT a frequent blogger, someone who don’t like expressing himself in words,  a pessimist who only blogs about the grey and dark side of his life~  Sometimes, people who read your blog is actually looking for something cheerful, something out of this world, something more enjoyable than the life that they are having. Wait a mintue, blogging is not about entertaining others, becuase I am not a novelist, I am not a script writer, so why do I bother what I should write about and what impact my writings have on others? Why do I even question myself? But, there’s a but, this kind of mentality is somehow irresponsible. You may say :” Hey, you don’t get paid for writing your blogs, therefore you do have the responsiblities.” Yea, you got the point, but please do remember I am NOT from YOUR WORLD, as a result, your logic and “so-called” sensible thinking do not apply on me~

I read about Joachim Baan on a magazine a month ago, he’s a graphic designer and photography, his inspiration comes from positivity. It may sounds abstract and unreal, but he made it solid and realistic. The concept of his artworks may be unbelievable, but after he translated it into his form of art, he made it believable. His motto is “positivism attracts positivism”. So, after I read about him and I refered back to the older posts I published here, I feel that I have contributed lots of energy waste here. I didn’t know that something positive is definitely positive while something negative is NOT neccessarily negative, but now I understand.

I should have transformed the negative energy, emotions, thoughts into something positive. It’s difficult, but NOT IMPOSSIBLE. Since then I have been telling people around me to everything as an inspiration. Since I am in this art line, hoping to be an artist/architect ( I know I am far from that, but I just kept my fingers crossed), I am always ready to be inspired. People who managed to read until this part ( I am sure 80% of them gave up reading after the 1st paragraph) might think that the bloody fool wrote this must have nothing better to do and started crapping here, partially you’re wrong because the message which I am trying to convey will somehow help u through the lowest point of your life.

There’re too many reasons for you to be negative and sad in life, but there’s only one good reason for you to be positive which is I wanna to be HAPPY, that’s what life is all about. The producer of “So you think you can dance”, Nigel Lythgoe said :” This is a life to celebrate and this is a life to remain inspriational,” on the day Pop Legend Micheal Jackson passed away. There’re too many thigns to grief about, so why bother griefing? Laziness is one of the human natures, so why can’t we get lazy of griefing? why can’t we get lazy of being sad?

So, I started being positive about everything, worst things can happen,but thing will get even worse if you got beaten by that. So, take everything as an inspiration. I ready to translate any form of negative energy into any form of sensational art, by the end of the day, I still had fun~ ;P

Maybe I am being delusional, but somehow I felt that people around me are getting moody lately, partially because of H1N1, partially because of MJ’s death. So, I am writing this hoping that somehow I can spread some positive energy~~

The END doesn’t mean the end, it signifies another beginning.

~weizeng11~

Friendship has become very fragile lately. A very long list of msn and phone contacts, but how many of them you actually called and keep in touch? What is the purpose of keeping in touch in the first place?  Schematic questions like ” How are you? Where are you now? When is your next holidays? When are you gratuating? ” are totally a waste of time, so why bother asking in the first place?

Perhaps my case is slightly different, maybe the conservation with me can last a little bit longer with a few more questions like ” When are you going overseas? Which country are you going to? How long are you going to be there? Have you got a girlfriend? Perhaps I already answered those question for a MILLION times. Deep inside my heart, I knew they already know the answers but they still asked because they DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO TALK ABOUT ANYMORE just like me.

Everything is in past tense now, there’s no present no future. Maybe we all haven’t moved on.  Maybe I can only talk about our fun time together while we were still in high school,those crazy things which we did together, tonnes of complains about high school teachers who have nothing to do with our life anymore. What else? Nothing else.

About xueji friends, again the same questions will pop up, for example : “Are you taking part in the national camp?” ” Are you going back to guide the juniors?” And then? No and then~

And I wanna emphasize that crapping is not communicating. That’s for sure. You can crap for as long as you wish, but in the end what actually do you get? A spurs of excitement? That’s all?

Sharing is caring,but first thing first, what is that which really worth sharing? Tiny miscellaneous stuffs are too pointless, big important issues are too tough to speak about,so what’s left?Gossips?Go watch Gossip girls la~

Everyone’s having their own life now, everyone also has their own stuffs to busy with, this was what I said one year ago, but because of this friendship has to be put aside? Maybe……

I used to have lots of things to crap about, lots of unnecessary gossips to spread, many irrelevant jokes to share, but I feel everything is so pointless already, what’s the the purpose actually? Is this the so-called mature thinking? Screw it~

What do I want actually? What do everyone expect in their friendship actually?

Friendship is fragile, that’s why we must HANDLE WITH CARE~

~weizeng11~

Never been good at maths, never been brilliant in academic, never been outstanding in sports, never been excellent in communicating and socializing, never been artistic in any sense, never been able to find the same click, never been able to escape from the description ‘weird’, SO WHAT?

So many never been, but that does not mean never will.

It just depends on whether I want to believe in it or not. There’s a common saying, there’s a lie in believe. I know, that’s why the first step to believe is to lie to your own self.

I believe :

I am NOT the best, not even better, I am just different.

That’s enough for me.

~weizeng11~

Just read through my older posts, now only I realise those are kind of GREY.

Friendship is all about sharing, but not only limited to those negative, emotional acts of frustration, should be fair to my friends too, since everyone loves a happy ending~

2009, hmmmmmmmm…..

I have lots of new year wishes this year, but to someone who believes miracles only happen to those who really put in their efforts like me, I think I should be more practical. Instead of keeping those wishes as wishes, I am going to say them out loud here :

To the one who is still collecting back the broken pieces of his heart and has been working like a hard work labour even though he’s the future boss,

Forget about collecting back the broken pieces, find a new one, maybe you need a transplant.

To the one who has been saving the world and remains as low-profile as Clark Kent,

I don’t know what you have been going through, but I know you will be stong because you are the man of steel, remember?

To the alien who finally found someone who has the same frequency as hers,

be happy and we as your friends are really happy for you.

To the one who is going to fly soon and yet filling her schedule as packed as Obama’s,

Chill, stay busy doesn’t guarantee that you will stay happy, many people DO CARE for you and they are really concern about you lately.

To the one who is the chubby version of Bruce Lee,

Our friends may not be very supportive about you taking up Petroleum Engineering, I would say : ” Just follow your heart.” and Guan would say : ” Just do it, like Nike.”

To the one who has no idea what he’s going to do after STPM and now is attempting to mislead those innocent primary school student,

They’re innocent, stop providing the wrong concepts..=P  Hope you can find what you really like deep inside your heart, if you find misleading those children is fun, GO ON and HAVE FUN~

To the one who has unsettled business with Adidas,

I trust you, nothing is going on between you and Adidas, hope that you can find your favourite brand soon. Can consider Puma~

To my female “bro”  who has a Indian-ish English name,

I promise I will watch a movie with you after a year of  ‘not-showing-up” of bad records. You know I miss you.

To the President of “Ah-Girl” club which tries to rival Blind People Society but tak jadi,

Don’t forget that you owe me a bowl of soup and I seriously wish to catch up with you.

To Cikgu Tey who has already misled those young children,

Gambate ya in the totally new environment, remember to invite me whenever you’re going for clubbing…^^

To the most wanted killer who uses a carrot to play badminton,

Don’t care about what joker said, a woman does not need a man to complete her life.

To the biggest fan of Stamford Bridge,

Good luck with your flying mission, I am sure you can fly, hope that you will fly to somewhere near my place, I will show you Old Trafford is better Stamford Bridge~*BLEK*

To the one whom I am going to be her made of honour,

I remember you told me that you need motivation…Nah,here’s your motivation..

To my cockroach wife,

I miss you a lot and I promise that we will meet, no more excuses.

To the lalat who turned me into a tree,

Continue being so 8, I know I taught you well~

To the new no. 11 of Manchester United,

Don’t stressed up yourself, no need to prove that you’re the best, because you’re different, unique, the one and only.

Happy New Year 2009~

~weizeng11~

It has a been while since the last time such great disappointment overwhelmed me.What I can say is youth reporter has lost its own spirit,its own colour,I do not feel proud to be one anymore.

For the first time in my life, I feel disappointed until I am speechless.

Disappointment has taken my words away.

~weizeng11~

When I first saw the trailer 2 months ago,I thought that will be the last movie I want to watch, because I am not someone who is so engrossed with outer space and obsessed with robots. It’s just so not my type~
However, since I already watched all the movies which are showing in the cinema plus running out of excuses to meet some old friends, Wall.E seems to be the best solution.=P 
To my surprise, I was totally mesmerised by Wall.E. The whole story line is fantastic, it’s very close to the concept of my latest artwork. I was thinking of reminding the public how beautiful the world which we are living in now by showing them the highly possible consequences of our world will turn into in the future if we continue allowing the rubbish stack under the sign board which written "Please do not litter" or cutting down trees to prove that we are already civilised.
The first 40 minutes of the movie is without any conversation, not until Eve appears.To me,the most mesmerising part is when Wall.E introduces himself to Eve, "Wall.Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~"
At the end of the movie, mankind manages to make it back to Earth after 700 years of outer space life. So,the part which I actually enjoyed the most was the credits of the movie, because the credits was the real ending of the whole movie. As usual,the credits wasn’t in animation,but more on slideshow which was a series of editted famous masterpiece throughout the era with Wall.E and Eve inside to portray mankind actually goes through civilisation one more time. The most captivating masterpieces were Vincent van Gogh’s Sunflower and Starry Night with Wall.E holding Eve’s hand.Absolutely awesome but once again everyone was hurrying to get out of the cinema…So,how many of them actually get the message which the movie tries to deliver?And how many of them will actually aware of how serious the pollutions have become?
Reminder : Movie is not merely entertainment, each and everyone of them has their own story to tell and important message to deliver.
Currently listening to : Leona Lewis’s Bleeding Love.

~weizeng11~

16 months of absence in my life,she is still that influential.Have been missing her quite a lot especially lately,however she said she didn’t,but somehow I know she did,maybe a bit. Gemini, I know you because I am one too.
In less than half an hour,she actually reminds me of who I was,who I am and who I will be.Perhaps I really changed a lot since our last meeting,but she doesn’t seem to notice that (maybe she just not truly a sensitive Gemini yet),she treats me just as if I’ve never changed,which is a good thing too,I can be my old self when I talk to her.
Kind of pissed with my life lately,feel so isolated and low-profile.Those who know me well will understand that low-profile is never my cup of tea.ermm,my profile seem to "sky-rocket" when we put all those irrelevant conversation topics together.I told her she’s the only one in this world who can make me feel better without telling her my problem.
Now I know,no matter how much the world has changed,there’ll be one person on the other side of the earth can really ‘fei’ with me.
Remember to miss me ya,even though a bit.

~weizeng11~

Today I was acting a bit weird.
but you don’t look surprise at all,perhaps you are thinking that weizeng’s always weird,nothing special about this.
Yingxin (see,I managed to spell correctly) asked me why I am not happy,
I also cannot answer,mayb I don’t even know whether I am happy or not.
Yuezhen said I always talk a lot,but none about myself.Long also agreed to her.
Sueven told me that I am being mysterious.
Am I ?
nevermind,screw it~;P

Suddenly I started to miss everybody,everything. 
This explains a lot why am I still awake at 4.11am.
I think I miss Art… perhaps,who knows? 

~weizeng11~